On Tuesday, Ronda Rousey appeared on the Ellen DeGeneres Show and revealed that in the immediate aftermath of her devastating knockout loss to now UFC women’s bantamweight champion Holly Holm she had briefly thought about killing herself.
The piece of Rousey’s confession that got the most attention was when she told DeGeneres, “I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself, and that exact second I’m like, ‘I’m nothing, what do I do anymore and no one gives a s–t about me anymore without this.’”
Rousey’s candid confession stunned many, but one person that could identify with her in some way is Holm. In December 2011, Holm was in the midst of a 24-fight unbeaten streak as a boxer when Anne Sophie Mathis knocked her out.
“I hurt for her that she feels that way because that is a very low place," Holm told Sherdog. "I did have a lot of help around me to where I did not feel that way. People would say, ‘Oh it’s not the end of the world.’ I was like, ‘Well that’s exactly what it feels like, the end of the world.' When you put your heart and soul into something and it gets shut down devastatingly, it’s terrible. It’s a horrible feeling.”
Holm avenged her loss to Mathis in June 2012 with a unanimous decision victory. She has not lost a boxing match or MMA bout since then.
Holm’s first defense of the UFC women’s bantamweight title will come on March 5 when she meets Miesha Tate in the co-main event of UFC 196. Tate has fought twice for the belt in the past, losing to Rousey by armbar in both title fights.