My Secret Spot

I am a happily married heterosexual man with two kids, a good job, doing some charity work, many hobbies. Occasionally when visiting a nearby town, I visit the gay sauna. Even more occasionally, I visit a local bathroom that I know has a glory hole. I can’t tell anyone IRL, and I can’t explain, defend, or justify it in the slightest. I’m careful and discreet. I don’t have any wish to leave my wife, and I don’t consider myself gay. I just sometimes get an itch that nothing else can scratch.